reason

the only reason why i always off the phone is,

I have to hold my patient of waiting its ringing as promised.


I just dont want to act like crazy by looking at the phone.

I just dont want to act so desperately.

I just dont want to feel disappointed.


am enough with those feelings.


yet, am considering the situations, understand and digest.

and end up with conclusion,

time passes, life changes then all can be changed.
but not my Heart.

the always problem of me is,
I can endure and bear with things people did and let them take me as granted.

sometimes, I feel thankful, but when negative thoughts come, i feel awful. then, I let it go.
let the person be.
being mad, whining, and etc those not solve the problem. then silent is the best option.


I always listen to people, but rarely am being listened.
maybe i have communication problem, i failed to convey my feelings, my expressions and emotions. people dont get it.


now, am down. down again as what if the same thing in the past reoccurs.
hope not.

good nite.

the beautiful scene after rain

Assalamualaikum. w.b.t

hollaaa! lama gila tak post. tinggal macam tu je. tetiba lately teringat ingat blog ni.

coz rasa cam pernah post something yg aku rasa macam..

ouh my! 

MY DREAM COME TRUE!

why? why? why?

previous post dated 30/10/2013 aritu kekonon berangan nak jumpa bakal suami yg macam ayah.

Mashaa Allah..

miracle does happened. 

perhaps, aku dah jumpa seseorang yg macam ayah. 

mungkin tak sama seratus peratus, tapi 70 % tu ada..

yang boleh buat aku yakin yang dia akan jaga n bimbing dengan aku seikhlas hati. 

indeed, 

Allah maha penyayang. 

jangan pernah  berhenti untuk berdoa.

jangan pernah gagal untuk kata Alhamdulillah. 

ujian?

Mashaa Allah. 

moga itu satu kafarah. moga itu satu cara penghapus dosa.

moga itu satu cara untuk terus dekat padaNya. 

moga-moga yang kali ni kekal sehingga pernikahan dan akhir hayat dan syurga. 

bi iznillaah. 

 

The awesome and wonderful new character of my new book. i wish they will be part of my entire life.

p/s: Alhamdulillah. dah 5 bulan,

dalam masa yg singkat ni macam berlaku..

Alhamdulillah.. syaedah tak pernah jangka akan smpai stage ni. 

it takes a lot of courage to sit next to future Ayah in law. 

walupon sebenarnya.. aku punya semangat nak amek gambar tu.. aisshh.. 

seb bek bley cover ayu. ayu? hahahahahhaha. 

kakak kata muka aku cam ade iras-iras lam family bakal somi. 

yeayyhh! mungkin jodoh. tak. harap-harap bukan mungkin dah. harap tulaah jodoh nur syaedah binti kamis.amin. 

may Allah ease the next step bi iznillaah.

ok. dah. mata sleepy duppy dah. sebenarnya type entry ni sebab i couldnt digest bahan tok assignment. hmmm.. n ttba rasa nak typing smtg jugak. 

ok. see ya.. doakan kehidupan syaedah lebih penuh warna warni.